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Tuesday, April 28, 2009, 7:29:00 PM
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will have to book in back to camp in just a couple more hours times... hate going back there, hated the routine there, hated the peoples over there... arr, i just hate EVERYTHING there... but still, after complaining so much in the end i will still have to go back. ~.~ whatever... i just hope that, you will be doing fine outside... stays as cheerful as you are when i know you, 11 months ago... and, maybe the flashes of me will appear in your mind, just once in a while... i hope its will be more of the good stuffs rather then the bad ones. cause i won't want you to detest me any further, you know ? lols... hope that you will be blessed with love & happiness, every single day... take good care of yourself & be careful, k ? P.S. from the person you once known as Dear. Monday, April 27, 2009, 7:47:00 PM
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start of a new course is always boring... lots and lots of new things to learn, but i guess its still better then staying in the training school... freaking 5.5 work days man ~ only can book out on the Sat afternoon, fuck that. then thought after having this course, i would have more time for her as i will get to book out more frequently... but now ? no more... oh my goddess, Kelly ~ what am i going to do ? i really needed your guidance right now... T.T stupid nicholas, stupid nicholas, stupid nicholas... why like that, why like that, why like that ??? how come it will lead to this way ??? its all because of... YOU ! this stupid nicholas, stupid nicholas, stupid nicholas... huh ? what ? why are you asking me this kind of stupid question ? of cause i will want to have her back again, but, by doing so... i will really have to prove to her that i really will change for the better... and not the worse, of cause... first thing is my hot & cold attitude... then follow by, my lousy temper, my late coming habit... and, maybe my big and round stomach... wah, a lot of things to change about me... i know you will go thinking again... hmph ~ only know how to say say only, talk but no actions done... but i don't care... this time, I WILL REALLY DO IT !!!!!!!!!!! cause i have really told myself before, that you will be my last and, still the last one to come... i swear, no one will come into my life after you... and if i have to die alone, i will do it... cause i'm really serious about it. i don't care if you see this post and go... arrrr... can you just stop pestering me ? i don't care... i will do my best to let my sincerity and willingness to change move you... cause, my life really sucked without you in it... just like the Kelly Clarkson's song. you are like the sun, the moon won't shine at night without you... you are like the fishballs, the fishball noodle won't be nice without you... and you are like my oxygen, i won't be able to live without you... i know its mushy, and you will go, EEEEEEEEEEE ~ stop it will ya ? then your hair will go standing at the back of your spine... but, I DON'T CARE ! i just want to let everybody know that, i, Nicholas Tay Zi Yong Really Really loves you a lot... and, i really couldn't live without you ~ cause, you are my one and only. Sunday, April 26, 2009, 3:37:00 PM
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that was the first time that i really almost fainted... and, just to describe how it feels... i tried really hard to stand still and open my eyes wide, trying my best to see things clearly... but, i couldn't do it... and, i'm just gradually getting weaker and weaker, & my vision gets darker and darker like i'm being engulf in it... maybe, thats the sign of her lacking in my life... there is always been this question going around in my head... if i were to get admitted into hospital, who were the one that will come and visit me ? i'm kinda afraid that no one might be there by my side... lols... whatever. hmm, my life just suddenly became so plain and bland... gaming was not what i really wanted now, but just to hang out with her... even if its just window shopping, walking and bitching around with her... lols... just seems much more meaningful then staying at home... i wanna go out, but i have got no one to go out with... maybe thats how pathetic my life is without her... ha ha ~ and, its just the start of the 1st day only... pathetic, damn pathetic man... there she is, happily going out with her friends... of cause, enjoying... here, me ? alone, facing the god damn lifeless com updating my idiotic blog... maybe i will just close down this blog for good... cause when people update their blog because things exciting or fun happen in their life... yet, mine was to update; how lonely i m, how pathetic i m, and, how lifeless i m... m i really destined to live my life like that ? maybe ? but i seriously hope not, or, maybe after months or years when i see her on the streets... with a good and handsome guy by her side, that is when the time i know, my time is up... and its time to move on, if not... i will be forever staying at the same spot, and, will never even move an inch away from it... if this is all just a dream, i hope i could wake up from it, seeing you by my side... Saturday, April 25, 2009, 5:10:00 PM
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my friend ! i've almost lost you there. i really never had the thought or even wanted you to leave in the first place. cause, i really really don't mean it. i will be responsible for my words next time, i'm sorry ~ hope i will be forgiven this time... thanks, and will be deeply appreciated. * to the special her, that will forever be in my heart. * we will never gonna go back to how we used to be ever again... and, there is no one to blame except myself... i know its too late saying all this thing, cause all the things that i have done is totally asking for it... its sad to say but, i have just started learning how to cherish you, only when your gone. how pathetic can i be ? there is nothing hurts more then you leaving me... and remorseful, is the only word that can describe how i feel right now. Sunday, April 5, 2009, 1:34:00 AM
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lols... don't complain le la, dar... i know 4 days have passed already, but i still wanna say... Happy 10th month anniversary DAR ! oh, and Happy April Fool too... lols. i will never let you regret giving me this chance. but, theres one thing i will like to ask from you. and, that is... you, not being sarcastic and doubtful againist me... i hope that is something simple i'm asking for, ain't that hard right ? well, there might be more ? but this is just one of it, for the time being ~ Thanks ! arr... my right eye is really really very painful, even a simple task like blink-ing my eye is so hard for me now... F**KED up sore eye ~ somemore tomorrow after my duty, i will still need to attend a wake from 12 pm ~ 5 pm... at don't know what Zion road or something... yeah, there goes my precious weekend... forget it ~ i'm so wakeful right now, doubt i could sleep with my eye constantly aching... but nevertheless, i'm still tired, both physically and mentally... time now; 1.51:53 am. time off duty; 2.30:00 am. |
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